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Post by Keiji/Hiroaki/Mamoru on Mar 5, 2012 1:41:32 GMT -7
This morning when I wake Kouki up, I give him a good-morning kiss on the forehead. "Wake up, sleepy-head," I say, shaking him gently.
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Post by Kouki Sato on Mar 5, 2012 1:51:48 GMT -7
My heart beats when he kisses me on the forehead. It's weird, to just jump in like this. I drowsily get up like usual, only half-awake. I walk around with glazed over eyes, occasionally bumping into things. This is normally fine, but today I tripped. My foot caught the carpet and i fell... right into Keiji. We both crash to the floor. Badum[/i]. Goes my heart again. My limbs are numb in this position. And I want to slap myself for thinking, Maybe we can skip breakfast today. As I stare at his bare chest, suddenly realizing I'm not wearing a shirt either.[/color]
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Post by Keiji/Hiroaki/Mamoru on Mar 5, 2012 1:54:05 GMT -7
I just laugh when Kouki falls on me. "Well, now, aren't we clumsy today," I joke. "Now that you've got me here, what are you going to do with me?"
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Post by Kouki Sato on Mar 5, 2012 2:05:53 GMT -7
"Well- I-I think that..." I stumble around my words, unsure of what to do. But before I can even think about what to do next, He kisses me. I almost forget to breathe again, but just when I start getting more into it, there's a knock at the door. I sigh, getting up off Keiji to answer the door. I throw on a shirt right before opening it. "Hello!" It's the nurse, "I just wanted to make sure you were doing all right!" she says in a sing-songy voice.
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Post by Keiji/Hiroaki/Mamoru on Mar 5, 2012 2:07:51 GMT -7
I prop myself up on my elbows when the nurse comes in. "Oh, I think he's doing alright," I say with a smirk.
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Post by Kouki Sato on Mar 5, 2012 17:33:50 GMT -7
I can't help but laugh at this, "Well I'm glad to see you're okay!" I wave to them as I walk out of the door. I decide to go down to breakfast. In the cafeteria I'm greeted by everyone as usual. Honestly the boys in this school! Although being cheery is in my nature, no matter how hard I try I just can't be un-cheery! I sigh, going through "Hellos and Good mornings" , but then I stop, blushing. The one person who I always want to say hello to! "Good morning Yamamotou!"
"What??" I'm taken aback. "What are you s-saying??" I can't believe what I just heard! It's just absurd! I mean, we're both guys! It's just not right! And yet, he's here, in my classroom, telling me, he loves me.
I sigh after i shut the door, "she knows doesn't she..." oh well, I know I can trust her. I plop down on the floor next to Keiji, the moment almost feels ruined, but I really wish it hadn't been. Maybe it can still be salvaged...
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Post by Keiji/Hiroaki/Mamoru on Mar 5, 2012 21:32:15 GMT -7
ooc: decided i wanted to change his name after all, to mamoru
"Good morning," I reply, taking a large bite out of my bagel. "What are you up to?"
I stand with my hands behind my back and my head down. I'm blushing all the way up to my ears. "I'm saying that I love you," I say again, softer this time so that I can barely be heard now. "I have since the first time I saw you."
I roll over on top of Kouki, holding myself inches above his face. "Now, where were we?"
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Post by Kouki Sato on Mar 5, 2012 22:59:16 GMT -7
My heart beats faster and my breathing stops, but I don't want to miss this so I try to focus on staying conscious and breathing. But it's really hard in this position, especially when being kissed by the guy you like so much. Keiji pulls away and my brain acts for me, "K-keiji... I love you,"
"I was just checking up on a student," I reply, also taking a bite of my food. I can't really continue though because my stomach is in knots.
I don't know what to do, but I can't just let this go on. I step towards him and say harshly, "No. You don't. You're just confusing love with friendship. Don't ever bring this up again," I grab my coat on my way out the door, leaving him behind. Maybe I was a little too harsh, but the kid needs to learn some common sense. I walk to the train station, the situation on my mind the whole way home. Maybe I'll apologize to him tomorrow. or bring him something, like one of those figurine things he likes so much. What am I saying? I shake my head. That would just put us back where we started.
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Post by Keiji/Hiroaki/Mamoru on Mar 6, 2012 13:43:41 GMT -7
"I love you too," I say back. The words still feel funny on my tongue. Not bad, just...funny. "And as much as I love this moment, we have to get to class," I say cheerily, getting up and holding out my hand to help him up.
"Cool," I reply. "Well, if you aren't busy, why don't you sit down and have some breakfast?"
I stand there for a moment, stunned. I had figured that he would probably say no, but I didn't realize that it would be this bad. In the end all I can do is sit down and cry. I just ruined one of my greatest friendships because I had to be brave. Way to go, Hioraki, I think, burying my face in my hands.
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Post by Kouki Sato on Mar 6, 2012 22:34:11 GMT -7
I sit and stare at his out-stretched arm, "but... class doesn't start for another hour... It's still breakfast..."
"A-alright!" I say, awkwardly, sitting down. "So have you read the e-mail about the teacher checks? I think it sounds ridiculous isn't it? I mean seriously! Haven't we been through enough? I thought they already checked everything... hhh oh well," I put on my best smile that I know the guys go crazy for, "I guess it's for the best. I'm glad to know they want to keep the kids so safe!"
I unlock my classroom and walk inside, breathing a sigh of relief. He's not here yet. I just can't face him right now, not after what happened last night. But the thought sits in the back of mind all morning as I grade papers and send e-mails. The door knob turns slowly...
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Post by Keiji/Hiroaki/Mamoru on Mar 7, 2012 18:45:54 GMT -7
"I know, and I haven't had any. If we leave too much later, I won't be able to eat as much as I want unless we're late for class," I laugh. "I'm a growing boy. I need sustenance."
I just shrug. "Since I'm a student-teacher, I have to go through this kind of check once every three months, so it's not that big of a deal."
I turn the doorknob slowly, wondering if I should go in or not. When I looked through the window, there was no one in the classroom but him. I pause, hand still on the doorknob, and then sigh. I take my hand off the doorknob and let it fall into place. I'll just wait a couple minutes until more students come. I lean against the wall next to the door and slide down, knees up to my chest.
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Post by Kouki Sato on Apr 15, 2012 19:15:49 GMT -7
I sigh as he stands up. "Alright," I say as my stomach growls too. We head down to breakfast after getting dressed.
"ya?" I take another bite of my food, "I guess I'm just not used to it." I laugh nervously.
Why do I feel so sad? I saw his face in the window. I know he was there. But when he saw me he left. I sigh. I don't know what to do here. What kind of situation is this anyway? Why does it have to be me? I reach for my stapler, but it isn't there. must've left it with the teacher next door. I stand up and open the door, bumping it into Hiroaki. He looks so sad, sitting here like this. But I don't really acknowledge him, moving on quickly to the next door to get my stapler.
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Post by Keiji/Hiroaki/Mamoru on Apr 15, 2012 21:07:01 GMT -7
We're heading down to breakfast when I smell the best thing that you can smell in the morning. "Bacon!" I cry cheerily, grabbing Kouki's hand as I take off towards the cafeteria.
I put a hand on Tanaka-san's shoulder. "I'm sure you'll do fine. They're just routine checks, so as long as you don't have anything to hide, you should be okay. You aren't hiding anything, are you?" I ask seriously, but there's a twinkle in my eyes.
I had thought that I had been sitting far enough away from the door, but I guess not. Mr. Akimoto walks out of the classroom and manages to bump into me. I just blush and scoot over a little bit farther to make sure it doesn't happen again. I'm afraid that if I speak i'll just say something stupid. Not that it mattered. He moved on before I could say anything. I sigh sadly. It's just more proof that he doesn't feel anything for me. My mind says that I should just give up, but my heart won't let me.
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Post by Kouki Sato on Apr 15, 2012 22:37:14 GMT -7
I lean over to Keiji's desk and whisper, "Do you want to go to town this weekend? we could check out all the shops!" I still haven't gotten a chance to see all of them,"
I look at the clock and then back to Hiroaki as he grades papers for me. Class is almost over, but the silence is extremely awkward. Why did I have to schedule a test today? the bell rings and as the students file out I hand them their homework assigment. Hiroaki makes to leave as well, but I stop him. "Wait, Hiroaki. I have to tell you..."
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